Thrills, routine, and lost creativity


Hi, my friend-

For a month and a half, I lived without a home. It was initially exciting, and then my creativity took a nosedive. I was in the thick of it all. Living with family and bouncing around was a thrill, and then it wasn't. I love adventure. I also love routine. And I lost my routine. Routine drives me to know what's next. As my creativity decreased, I realized I needed to give myself grace. I had to lean into the fact that when I got to where I was going, it would come back. It always has come back before. As a coach, I come across this all the time. It was time to take my own medicine.

When we finally got to Lisbon and landed in our place, it took over a month (as of yesterday), and I'm still not there. What I needed was more patience. Patience to settle and nest. To get an idea of who I am in this new place. All kinds of things came up, like how I would shift in this new time zone, meet new people, and connect, and what my daily routine would look like. It was hard enough to be in the in-between, and now I was leaning into the unknown again.

I woke up now and had my coffee and Rockstar. I walk out to our new back patio and thank the universe for this day I'm about to have. As a creator at heart and someone who loves to see others thrive in the creativity of what's next, I had to give myself space and time.

I put the book down that I had been starting to write and focused on my coaching practice. So here I sit, writing you an email telling you I'm not there yet. This email is me sitting in it all, waiting patiently for that piece of me that I spent a lifetime having the ability to know what I wanted next, just being in it

Here are a couple of things I do know:

  • Giving myself a chance to slow down allows me to be open to new things I don't know will hit yet.
  • Creating the space needed has sent the universe the signal that I am open, which led me to more clients. Instead of leaning into frustration, I opened up, which allowed me to receive more of what I love to do: work with others.
  • Learning not to lean into bad habits and owning new, good, healthy ones makes it possible to see more clearly.
  • Owning what I perceived as stuckness showed me that I was not stuck; I was in transition. Still am. And I can tell something big is about to happen because of my desire.

I have an ideas list of things I know I want to do, and it's sitting in front of me saying, I'll be here when you are ready.

How do you work through your stuckness? What do you do when you feel your creativity isn't there yet?

For me, I have to lean in, remain open, and listen in between the lines. Oh, and make sure I have my coffee and Rockstar in the morning. Ha!

With gratitude-
Bryan


Bryan Kramer is the author of Human-to-Human and Shareology -> books

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